I picture her lying on stiff, taupe carpet. I've never seen the floor there, never seen the apartment at all, so this is an embellishment. An invented detail. But I can still see her. Her hair is a fan behind her, waves of chestnut and gold. When I see her she is always face-down. This means either that my vindictive imagination still takes some pity on me, or that I've already forgotten her face.
Which would make sense, since in the past two years I've seen her three times a year, each time in passing, bubbling by (all smiles) to drink or have coffee. She with her friends, I with mine. We made vague plans. To play cards and drink.